Tuesday, February 19, 2008

say

I admit that once in my life, I almost considered myself to be trash because of how easy it was for people to leave me, to dump me. But now i realize that I have grown because of the very same people. It won't be easy to let go and it won't be easy to forget because these people have already been a part of me.

One of my greatest fears ever since was being left out; its so frustrating that i tend to become an unknown creature trying to fit in and please everybody else. Now i can say that im used to it but i still do expect the worst to come. I believe that in this same journey that everyone is taking, we are likely to encounter different struggles to determine our strength.

Before i try to hold on even if i know better that i must let go and i'd be better off that way.

Now here's what i want to say:

I am glad that you opened my heart and my mind. Before, i was afraid to lose you because i thought i'd never find somebody that would be as good enough as you. Truth is, it really is not possible but i could find even better people. Sometimes we tend to forget that there are still other people around us which do care; we become narrow minded for a moment then and think that nobody does. Yes, its the same old drama but you never realize it unless you have been the one in that situation.

Its funny that i always give the same advice to people whenever unexpected and unwanted events come into their lives, that everything has its purpose, but can't hardly apply it to my own.

I can never be the same person through the years. People change. But i want you to put in mind that when you want to come back, you'd always have that same old friend waiting for you. I have made a vow that for everyone, i would be a friend til the very last of my breath. People might think that its not possible given that people do change so it is not impossible that i will. I have my own conviction and that makes me different, that makes my vow different.

To see people around me happy is enough and to bring joy to their lives gives the meaning for my life. I found my purpose and i found the things which i live up for.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

its not about how they treat you. its how you react to their treatment.

what makes a person is not others think of him but what he thinks of himself because it eventually transcends, and it creates a change far better than you could imagine.

i hope you see that you are more than what you think you are or else id have to lend you my eyes for you to realize.

-peewee

Earvin said...

Ang hirap kasi sa ganyan, even though minsan masaya ka, it haunts you...

the donG said...

serving others helps a lot. when you serve other people it simply means you value them and you'll learn to value yourself. being selfless is important. enjoy life!

cyndita said...

um, i'm glad you did realize this. =)and i'm much happy for you. enjoy summer!