Tuesday, October 30, 2007

i was carried away

Yeah.. i was carried away by my emotions. Thanks Nang Bam for explaining things to me...

Sometimes i become narrow minded when troubled.

There's no use in taking back the things that i've said. What Nang Bam said hit me hard in the face.

"I don't mean to say that you dismiss every comforting thing, may it be sincere or otherwise, others offer you. Just think of it this way: No matter how hard and improbable it is for anybody to understand what you feel, there's still someone who's willing enough to make an effort to do so. Even the most insincere comforts are noteworthy because, in a way, it's letting you know that the person recognizes the existence of your feeling and tries to do something about it, even if it aint so real, at least it's SOMETHING. I think, even if it ain't THAT helpful, it is still something so greatly beautiful. "

Yeah, why didn't i think of that. I believe that i'm not the only one who has the same attitude when troubled and i do admit my mistakes. I still have to learn a lot of things. Hu! Maybe i'm just expecting too much from the people around me.

and thats the way it is...

Things usually don't go the way yu want them to... and sometimes that sucks!

Today i found a person that has the same sentiments as to what i have...

It sucks that the people who you think can help you out, whenever you have problems, can't. Yes, they do try but its rather putting up an imaginary friend that comforts you till the end but doesn't really know how you feel but i do thank them for the effort anyways. I know its rather rude of me to think this way but frankly speaking, its true right? You can see it right through their eyes...

Well, you can't blame people who thinks this way because at that moment of time, they are in a pit of darkness. Scared of the things ahead of them. They couldn't see any ray of light that would lead them towards the road of hope, of warmth. Its as if their feet are glued to freezing blankness. They want to cry out loud but there is a bubble that contains everything in their system and it wouldn't pop! They are longing to be heard but the mere faces of the nearest people couldn't relate because they are not there, or they haven't been there all along...

Im sorry but this how i feel, some of us feels...

There's just something that builds up on our way to you our beloved friends... Something that comes you also... I guess... sometimes we just have to learn on our own, be strong for ourselves and go beyond our limits.

The thorns along the way may hurt but thats the way it is. I believe that this line from a movie fits, "People get cut. That's life."

Sunday, October 28, 2007

what a sembreak..

After the fun trip from Bacolod... i said to myself that i'm ain't going to bora to attend Cyndi's debut... well... surprisingly with just a call early next morning from Cyndi, there i was... on a puj trying not to let them wait so long in Andoks...

What the heck, i was really heading for Bora!!

Well, everything went well... We spent our first night at the dela Cruz' residence in Kalibo and then headed for Bora early the following day...

We were in the well known white sand beach for 3 nights... Within that short period of time, i also had fun just like the fun i had in Bacolod... Long walks in the beach, swimming, tong-its and pusoy dos sessions, inuman sessions and sleeping sessions, the Banana boat ride and the debut itself... hehehe... what a sembreak!

Now im back here in Iloilo... I dunno why but i'm rather really sad... Maybe i just want to go back to those times with the Bacolod and the Bora Buddies...

Its time to face the real world again, time to face the different struggles ahead of me this semester and i'm really scared...

Help me God...

Love you Bacolod Buddies and Bora Buddies! *sobs*

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


i feel bad about the my brothers' situation in laguna...

"Pag wala na daw silang pera, bumibili nalang sila ng ulam sa labas" said mom.

i feel somehow guilty for some reason which i can't explain... good thing my mom asked me to check if there are still promos for roundtrips and she would let them have their vacation here... if ever they do, im gonna feed them lots of food! hehehe... good thing there are a lot of restos that are cheap yet the food are still satisfying...

i dont want them comparing their situation to mine... i dont want them having grudges on me...

i just hope that they can go here...

Monday, October 22, 2007

The City of Smiles

Im just gonna make this post short.. hehehe...

Finally! I got to see the city of smiles, Bacolod City!

I really had fun with nang bam2, nang ma.e and nang kage!

The never ending food, Tito Rex was one heck of a cook!;

Our trippings in the peryahan, it was really fun especially hearing them screaming out their lungs when they decided to try the ferris wheel (hehe, evil me!;D);

The movie marathons from which always one or two would sleep ahead of us and the crying sessions during one of the films;

Our trip to Mambukal which was really an adventure. Though tiring, it was really worth it. All of us slept in the car afterwards and then all of a sudden we were in front of Mang Inasal and were about to eat.(actually our faces were like in a "huh? ano? hala!" sort of look... hehehe;

The ice cream session!(i really love coffee crumble!);

Our Sing-aLong Session, they say that it was the family's(The Desabelles) past time... The same night, Nang Shayne, Nang Sheila, Nang Manuela, Nang K.o. and Nong Dexter arrived and joined the fun... hehehe... One more thing, Idol ko na rin si Tito Rex! heheh... Nice voice!

Our trip to Pana-ad courtesy of Nong Jath... Hehehe... He became our tour guide for the day... hehehe...

The cake at Kuppa! It was one heck of a cake! It was worth the wait... They'll only prepare it the moment you order it.. Its just like a chocolate volcano with chocolate lava served with vanilla ice cream and strawberry syrup... Yum3!

And our jogging session. Even before our trip going there, we were already planning that. After 2 failed attempts, we finally made it early this morning! hehehe... it was really fun! people in Bacolod are health conscious...

One more thing! I really love their restaurants compared to what we have here in Iloilo...

Well... that's the last of it... Though we'd love to extend our stay there... it was time to go... huhu... the sad part..

Thanks Nang Bam2!;D Hope there'll be a next time...

you can check out our photos in my friendster account: http://profiles.friendster.com/rapfhaime

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Isang Panaginip

Kung Nauso si Benjo at si Tonton..

We'll eto... Joseph the Dreamer...

part 1

part 2

part 3

part 4


Saturday, October 6, 2007

What is real?

"What is real?" asked the rabbit one day when they were lying side by side.

"Does it mean having things that buss inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real, isn't how you're made.", said the skin horse.

"It's a thing that happens to you when a child loves you for a long, long time. Not jus to play with, but really loves you, then you become real."

"Does it hurt?", asked the rabbit.

"Sometimes.", said the skin horse for he was always truthful.

"Does it happen all at once? Like being wound up? or bit by bit?", asked the rabbit.

"It doesn't happen all at once. It tales a long time. That's why it doesn't always happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved off and your eyes drop out and you get loose at joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all because once you are real, you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

by Margery Williams

Friday, October 5, 2007

GO Scions!

haha... it was my first time to see this videos so i thought of putting it in this blog of mine...


The Creative Modern Dance

The Acapella

im just proud to be one... you would appreciate it if you were here...